It’s been some time since I visited here.
Back in August, the time of my last post, as I ran wild along the rugged and raw California coastline, I had already been handed the diagnosis. I knew what was coming my way as a result and so that time away felt even more of a gift.
Mine was of the “good kind of cancer” variety. Not minimizing or mocking that phrase as those who said it, meant it to comfort. But months later, it still sits wrong with me. In September, I had my thyroid removed. No surgery is ever a breeze and I have had my fair share, so I say that with knowing wisdom. One tiny, delicate cut at the base of the throat…the location, unnerved me more than I expected. They removed a small tumor that, I’m told, didn’t want to let go. It clung to my vocal chord, residually leaving me without voice for nearly two months. Well, that’s one way to quiet me, for sure…;) Even without words, the mind still spins, you know…
The Autumn months were quieter as I took the time I needed to recover. Not easy, to slow this girl down especially since my business/work is one of my passions…But, in the studio, we slowed down, yes… to an ever so slightly slower beat. That gave me time to think, to reflect, to analyze. New directions and new ideas often come from a place of quiet and I look back now in gratitude for that time as we are on course in new ways that feel very right. At home, I was wrapped even tighter in light and love. Family and dear ones took very good care of me…fed me well and kept me in flowers.
It’s taken time… for my body to regulate sans thyroid, for my energy levels to stabilize, for my voice to return (that one…still, a work in progress;) I almost feel like myself again. Getting there, day by day.
I’m not always one to share my deeply personal things in a public way and rarely open that side of myself beyond my images and art… My struggles are mine. But I felt it was time to share a bit more. Hoping my words enlighten. Thank you for reading …~